Writing personal posts are always slightly daunting. It’s hard to know where to start or how much detail you want to get into. But when it came to today’s post on pregnancy and rheumatoid arthritis (RA), I knew it was a topic I wanted to explore. I was diagnosed with RA at a very young age after watching both my mother and my Nana succumb to the disease. It can be very debilitating causing so much inflammation in the joints that deformities arise. That was the case with my Nana who was diagnosed in a time where the best they could muster up in terms of drugs were some lightweight anti-inflammatories. I’ll always remember her gnarled fingers, her tiny feet and inflamed wrists and ankles. To a young granddaughter though, Nana was Nana…the deformities weren’t deformities in my eyes. It wasn’t until I grew up that I realized how challenging her day to day was. She was incredibly strong to deal with so much pain.
I, however, can be considered lucky because the advances in medicine have made my journey so much less painful. As long as I take the medication, you would never guess I had RA at all! That is until I decided it was time to start planning for a family. I didn’t anticipate how difficult it would be to change my medication and no, I am not writing this expecting any measure of sympathy. In the earlier days of this journey, I would have given anything to simply talk with someone going through the same issues. I couldn’t find anything except boring medical posts to read online and once you’ve read one, they all seem to say the same thing. All I wanted was to read another woman’s story, relate to them or be able to ask a question or two.
And so, this post on pregnancy and rheumatoid arthritis is simply a small contribution to what I hope can be a larger conversation, even if it ends up being just one conversation with another woman. That’s worth it, right?!
My biggest struggle was getting mixed signals…”stop taking all the drugs at once”…”no, this one you need to be off for 3 months and this one for 1 month”…”this drug might actually be safe, here read a bunch of medical data”…It was confusing! And, in the end, I didn’t get it right whatsoever. I went cold turkey, dropping all my meds and the first few months of us trying for a baby resulted in a huge flair up that left me in so much pain I could barely function. At my worst, I needed help squeezing a tube of toothpaste! It was probably the lowest I’ve ever felt. But having a very understanding husband was honestly my saving grace!
Without getting into too much medical mumbo jumbo, I ended up switching to a newer drug. And though the research isn’t nearly as extensive because of its age, its makeup of larger proteins means it does not penetrate the placenta the same way that other RA medications do. After a lot of contemplation and looking at the alternative (being in so much pain and inflammation is not good for a baby either), I decided to take it, hoping that a natural remission would result in my second trimester. Would I have wanted a completely drug free pregnancy?! Absolutely! But after seeing just how damaging the disease could be, I wasn’t willing to gamble.
So, where am I at today?
Unfortunately, I am not like most women and I have not gone into a remission at this stage of my pregnancy. The baby is more than healthy and for that I am very grateful! But I on the other hand, am still struggling with a few major joints and a lot of general stiffness. If you look closely at this picture below, you may be able to see that the swelling in my wrist causes me to hold it at a more awkward angle. Coupled with a very inflamed elbow, my right arm is pretty much useless right now. It was actually a huge struggle to even touch my hair like that! I joke that by the end of the pregnancy, I’ll be ambidextrous because I’ve had to use my left hand for so much…so no judgement if my makeup looks lopsided or my writing extra messy, ok!!!
I’ve chosen not to take any pain medication. One drug in my system is enough for me. But I’ve found other ways to manage the pain. A few weeks ago, I started swimming which is a great form of exercise during pregnancy anyway! It is the one activity I can do that puts no strain on my joints and allows me to feel somewhat normal again. And I always come away feeling a lot better and less inflamed. I’ve changed the position that I sleep in, how I go up and down stairs (sideways a bit if you’re wondering lol) and am trying to eat a well thought out diet. Turmeric, ginger and cinnamon have also been added to my daily routine since they’re great for reducing inflammation. Oh and I truly believe I owe my pregnancy to acupuncture!
Anyone with any sort of preexisting condition can probably identify with me and my journey thus far. It is never easy but at the end of the day, worth it. The baby comes first!
If you have any advice for me I would love to hear it! If you’ve gone through a similar situation or are currently experiencing what I am, I would gladly talk more and answer any questions you may have! I’d love to keep the conversation going!
Love, me and the little bean xo
Thanks to Behind the Blush for photos!
I’m so proud of you for starting a conversation that you were looking for earlier in your pregnancy! I hope this reaches women out there in a similar situation as you <3 So proud and happy for you as always my friend! XO
Thank you D! That means so much! Your guidance has played such a huge part in this blogging journey and finding the courage to talk openly. Thank you so so much my friend XO
What Diana said below! Shear pride for your strength to share your story, to adjust to your circumstances with a smile (& pregnancy glow), & to do what is best for you + your family. You know I am here if you need anything. A grocery run. Hair shampoo. Anything, gf! XOXO
Thank you so much my dear! I may take you up on that hair shampoo lol! Love you muchly! XOXO
Thank you so much for sharing! I admire your honesty and bravery 🙂 I just wanted to let you know that you are NOT alone, and I fully support and respect the decisions you’ve made for your health and family.
I too, suffer from a chronic illness (ulcerative colitis), and every time I think I’m better, I get a flare-up. I know I have to be on medication for the rest of my life, and yet, after 9 years with this disease, I still haven’t gotten used to the idea.
I never thought I would be able to get pregnant, especially with all the medications I’m forced to take, but miraculously, I did 🙂 And now, I have a beautiful, healthy daughter that is such a blessing and joy. I chose to stay on my meds during my pregnancy, because I knew it was the only way I could get into remission and remain healthy enough to carry my baby full term. In my case, the pros definitely outweighed the cons.
So with that little story, I wish you all the luck in the world on your pregnancy. I know you will make an amazing Mom, and I couldn’t be happier for you 🙂
Much love,
Paige
Oh Paige! I never knew! I’m sorry…gosh so many things to have to go through in this life hey?! Thank YOU for sharing with me. I thought it would be so hard to get pregnant too…and I was so surprised when we got lucky. And it makes me so happy to hear that your daughter is healthy…I’ve seen some pictures and she is beautiful 🙂
Thank you so much for your kindness and for reaching out. It really means a lot. I hope you stay healthy hun xoxo